day three hundred and seventy-five

J'espère, je rêve
avec espoir
je deviendra ton amoureuse.

Je vais te voir a bientôt
au mercredi
au Église de la Sainte-Trinité
où je vais reveiller
quand je m'assoie
de toi et moi.

Au mercredi chez l'Église
je vais te voir
avec ton mari
(je le trouve tellement gentil).
Tu ne m'aimera jamais
comme je t'aime,
tu n'es pas capable.

day three hundred and fifty-nine

The only sample of tranquility we have today is that moment we lock the washroom stall.
Exhale.
Ferme les yeux.
The muscles in your core relax.
It's just you and the florescent light shining down on your shame.

Quand on ouvre la porte, les yeux restent fermés.

day three hundred and fifty-two

We spent an entire generation getting our race to the front of the bus, but every shadowy hoodlum I see shuffles to the back anyway. I guess 'we' just fought for the option, then.

day three hundred and fifty

I'll only disappoint you
if you start setting boundaries.

day three hundred and twenty-six

Cheap digital cameras focus on everything
because they can't pinpoint anything
like a human
like a simile
like a poem that makes me sound like an anomaly

day four hundred and twenty-two

My head's been killing me for the past month and a half, I have this unsatisfiable itch in my left leg, near my calve, it feels like there are rusty gears screeching inside my head every time I try to think, I'm still not over what happened when I was eleven, I'm still in love with his cock, but I want her soul, my mother isn't supporting what I do, I haven't been able to lose weight in three years, I've been depressed since my uncle passed away, nothing even feels real anymore, I think about death any time I have a moment to think, every time I try to sleep I get these pains in my torso, I'm crying each time I see someone in a golf shirt, I feel like there's been no closure with past relationships, I don't have anyone I can call a decent friend, I never want to be around people, I avoid social gatherings, I have terrible anxiety and there's this really awkward birthmark on my wrist that makes me paranoid. I actually Google searched all of this last night and found out a few disorders I may have. I made a list. I can read it if you like?

You know, Sadie, back in my day, we called that life.

day four hundred and twenty

No, I said "American," pronounced "I'm arrogant."